0 days 'til summer

School ended on Friday.

I knew the day had to come.

I tried to prepare for it.

I really tried hard to mentally get ready for it.

It didn't work......

It was a very hard day for our family.

At one point I told Jason that I just needed to leave because I couldn't control my emotions any longer. I was sobbing and I didn't need to keep torturing myself or the children.

Fourth grade is the last grade you attend in the Lower School. They make a big deal about graduating. So, Garrett went through fourth grade graduation. I would have been teary eyed on that day anyway, but knowing we weren't coming back....well, let's just say I didn't hold it together well.

I had several teachers come up to me and tell me how sad they were that my children were leaving. I had a few tell me that they were furious when they heard what was going on. I was told by every teacher that talked to me that my children are some of the most well-behaved children in the school and that should account for more than it did. The art teacher told me that she was upset that my kids were leaving and she was going to miss teaching such talented artists. She squeezed my hand and whispered, "I wish I could do something to change this, but we know I can't. Just keep them creating!" Both Spanish teachers, classroom teachers, the music teacher and others came up to me and each time it was like a knife stabbing me.

So many parents came up and hugged me and told me how much they were going to miss us. There were so many people who we love and will miss. I think that will be the hardest part!

I kept telling myself to remember that we were doing the right thing....sigh!

Anyway, it's been stressful the last eight months. Unexpected stress that has really taken its toll on my mental health and my physical health.

I'm going to try and come back to the blogging world really soon. I need to write. I need to be able to move on with life and look forward. I have been so far behind lately, that I haven't had time to move forward.

Now it's summer and we can sleep in a little bit and just hang out and go to the pool. We are going to take it easy this summer.

So, now the day has come and gone and we are all ok. Just like I knew we would be.

We are going to make it.

0 days 'til summertime.....time to start enjoying it!